Yes im depressed

So  as you know I'm depressed. Situational depresión.

Depression can be caused by a lack of social interaction with others, which can lead to feelings of loneliness and isolation. This can be exacerbated by the loss of a girlfriend, which can be a significant source of emotional support. 

I like that description 👌 

I have no peer to peer in person friendships. Of course my dating life would 🙄 be homor if was so 😔. 

I have run out of ideas for changing my situation.  Especially because of not driving.  I can't go places and geoche and can't go to beautiful places and take pictures.  I can't go on a vacation i can't go see a friend. 

That's what my problem is can years relate?

Random thought with Andy

Is now Tuesday.  It was cold Monday.  It's now 1 and and it 15 degrees. I'm safety in my bed. 

I am alone that's such unexpected thing.I had friends as a kid. The i worked in restaurant i had friends. I went work at beach i gad lots friends. I got married  and learn how to  e adult with kids.

So I focus on that the friends slowly  went away. The marriage did not work we were two different people I think we would gave broken up if my judgement had not been clouded by lust.  We are friends now.

After the divorce. I did not take the time to work on my self. Many issues I pushed to  to the side. I had kids.

Then I was lonely scared afraid. So I went on a Dating app.  To find love security. I had another kid.I tried  to be father to every one. 

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3 kids 2 step kids.  I tried to  make it work.  I caused my kids  mental stress. I still did not deal with my issues.  That marriage failed.  

I now had extreme pressure from all sides. I couldn't do anything right. I did not maintain my friendships. So there were gone.

I have now spent years working on my issues.I have made amends with all the people i have wronged. I have peace.   

I also have so much lonlyness  I have not had a date 5 or 6 years. When I working my friends were my coworkers.

Now I cannot work i have no friends.  I try to make the best of my lonly life.

IT'S Super Sunday!

 

So it only hours before the big game. It's cold 🥶 cold outside. Luckily I'm sporting the  beard!

Alot has happened especially with with politically. I will say I'm unfavor of decreasing the debt of nation.

The interest on the debt is shocking.  

Well anyway I'm going get a pizza 🍕 😋 and pop. The Chiefs will win! In my careful analysis.  

My life is so lonely.  I try to keep  busy with my hobbies and walking. I miss being in a relationship.  Well happy Sunday 😊 

Taco Bell restaurant opinion

Taco Bell was founded in 1962 by Glen Bell in Downey, California. Initially, Bell operated various food stalls, including Bell's Drive-In, where he sold tacos inspired by those at Mitla Cafe across the street. He opened his first Taco Bell restaurant after experimenting with his own taco recipe. 

RFK JR at Taco Bell 🔔 

Yes I went to taco bell. Yes I know the extreme gas is on its way!

The staff was very nice the pop machine had issues. The staff corrected the issues right away.  I've not gone on one date in five or six years, so i'm not worried about my farts disturbing anyone. If you fart and no one's there to smell it, does it stink?

So might day tour eating Taco Bell do you have a death wish? Yes I have been single 6 years not one date.  Yes I long for the sweet embrace of death.