Late breakfast at Powerhouse grill

 

WALK THROUGHOUT CHESTERLY PARK

I went put gill in Yakima 

For a late breakfast at powerhouse grill.

As you can see very delicious 😋 

I've been on a journey to fix my thinking and behavior.  

Learning to respect my boundaries and others boundaries. 

At times when something goes really wrong I want to share it with my friends far away.  

Now I hold back the have spouses kids lives  and troubles of there own.

Not say if something major happens to me I won't tell them.

I respect them and there lives 🙏 

Random thought with Andy

Is now Tuesday.  It was cold Monday.  It's now 1 and and it 15 degrees. I'm safety in my bed. 

I am alone that's such unexpected thing.I had friends as a kid. The i worked in restaurant i had friends. I went work at beach i gad lots friends. I got married  and learn how to  e adult with kids.

So I focus on that the friends slowly  went away. The marriage did not work we were two different people I think we would gave broken up if my judgement had not been clouded by lust.  We are friends now.

After the divorce. I did not take the time to work on my self. Many issues I pushed to  to the side. I had kids.

Then I was lonely scared afraid. So I went on a Dating app.  To find love security. I had another kid.I tried  to be father to every one. 

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3 kids 2 step kids.  I tried to  make it work.  I caused my kids  mental stress. I still did not deal with my issues.  That marriage failed.  

I now had extreme pressure from all sides. I couldn't do anything right. I did not maintain my friendships. So there were gone.

I have now spent years working on my issues.I have made amends with all the people i have wronged. I have peace.   

I also have so much lonlyness  I have not had a date 5 or 6 years. When I working my friends were my coworkers.

Now I cannot work i have no friends.  I try to make the best of my lonly life.

My thoughts Saturday 1st

 So is saturday the first of february. I took a day not to post. Because things going in my life. I choose not to talk about it for now. I would like my life to be. Less stressful and just to enjoy life itself. But it doesn't work that way.Always.Where are you at all. What saddens me? It's being disabled and not able drive and being. It's a huge fan of the outdoors and of taking pictures. I'll classify myself as an amateur photographer. Wanna be. I would love to go to all these places. I see that many other photographers go in the northwest and take pictures of beautiful waterfalls n b f o lakes and beautiful forest. But I can't, without somebody driving me and I have no  one to drive me. Ideally I was like a girlfriend, then we can experience the beauty and uh, uh, of these places together. Unfortunately, I don't have a girlfriend. Haven't had a girlfriend like six years. So I have to make do was the pictures.I can take the places I can go. Like I had somebody drive me to the cemetery.Where my friend is. I saw her grave. II took pictures of the grave, and then I took pictures of the beautiful buildings and ponds, what's up? Geese and ducks and those pictures turned out awesome. So that is an example of how I saw what I had to do wanted to do and combine that with picture taking. Any things you couldn't understand in this bug. F, BS I'm dictating it, not writing it, and I'm not going back to fix the mistakes. I'm sorry.

A poem

 Shadows of Solitude

In the quiet corners of the mind, Where light seldom dares to tread, Lies a shadow, vast and kind, A cloak of sorrow, heavy as lead.

Depression, like a silent thief, Steals the colors of the day, Leaves the heart in quiet grief, As night swallows the light away.

Sadness, a river, ever flows, Through the landscapes of the soul, Its waters deep where no one knows, Eroding dreams, making one whole.

Loneliness, a companion grim, Sits beside you, day and night, No words to speak, no hope to skim, Just the echo of an endless fight.

Yet in this darkness, there’s a call, A whisper of the dawn to come, For even shadows on the wall, Must yield when light begins to hum.