The constant rejection

A quote from shakespeare:

> "Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,

> Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,

> To the last syllable of recorded time;

> And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

> The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

> Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player

> That struts and frets his hour upon the stage

> And then is heard no more. It is a tale

> Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

> Signifying nothing."

> 

 My life is not a bed of roses. No one knows the truth.  Mabey if the rose bush was intact with all the thorns.

I don't tell anyone this become the don't want here it.  I'm never not in pain physically. I keep that knowledge to myself. Cause people can't handle it. And there's nothing they can do. Where's my chiropractic visits i have is the pain tolerable.   

For 5 or 6 years i've tried on and off everything so I can share the good times with someone I want to find that special someone.

Someone to share my dreams with my sorrows.

Eventual someone to love me romantically.  Someone to share my passions with my dreams, and maybe I need accomplish some of them that I can't accomplish on my own. I love my photography and I would love a person. I can go with and pointing out the awesome pictures that I could take, and I i will take.

Someone to cuddle and laugh with and cry with. I want to share they're joy wes and share and accomplishing their goals. 

I spent all last year.

Doing my best to think positively as if I was going to meet that special one last year. That's very positive, is that it?What happened. 

It didn't happen and all my attempts to meet somebody to establish relationship I failed. Now i'm more lonely than I have ever been in my life. I sleep too much because why not.

Every idea that people have come up with, I've done repeatedly over the years. There's nothing new I haven't heard of doing. 

And if someone says it will happen when you least expect it, I'll strangle them. Or the phrase?It will happen in god's time. Or it will happen eventually, you just have to be patient. Or you're such a awesome person, it will happen   no one wants to give me a chance.Do to my situation.   I am no value to single women.