The Whisper.

 

In a room where shadows dance alone,Sits a man, his heart a silent stone.Years have passed with no love to claim,No warm touch, no one to whisper his name.

He stares out the window at the world outside,Where life moves on in a bustling tide.But his heart, it lingers in the past,Where love once bloomed, now just a ghost, aghast.

Strokes have come, his body now frail,A reminder of time and its merciless trail.He feels his worth, like sand through hands,Slipping away to barren lands.

No one to call, no laughter shared,Just echoes of a life once cared.He wonders if he's but a shadow, unseen,In a world too busy to pause, to lean.

His eyes, they mirror a sky so gray,Reflecting the loneliness of each passing day.He dreams of love, of touch, of care,But wakes to find no one there.

It finally hit me.

Waking up, I adjusted my eyes to the morning light and splashed water on my face. I thought about my life. Really thought about it. I finally come face facts. I will be alone forever. I have ignored that truth I have been alone comming up on 6 years.    

I think of people i have lost. Sister,cousin,friends, lots uncles and aunts , my friends mom my mom. 

I'm still here with death all around me.

I don't know if I have the skills for this new realty. 

En me réveillant, j'ai ajusté mes yeux à la lumière du matin et j'ai éclaboussé mon visage. J'ai pensé à ma vie. J'y ai vraiment pensé. Je me retrouve enfin face à des faits. Je serai seul pour toujours. J'ai ignoré cette vérité que j'ai été seul à venir sur 6 ans.

Je pense aux gens que j'ai perdus. Sœur, cousine, amis, beaucoup d'oncles et de tantes, mes amis maman ma mère.

Je suis toujours là avec la mort tout autour de moi.

Je ne sais pas si j'ai la compétence

Al despertar, ajusté mis ojos a la luz de la mañana y salpicé agua en mi cara. Pensé en mi vida. Realmente lo pensé. Finalmente me enfrento a los hechos. Estaré solo para siempre. He ignorado esa verdad que he estado solo en 6 años.

Als ich aufwachte, passte ich meine Augen an das Morgenlicht an und spritzte Wasser auf mein Gesicht. Ich dachte an mein Leben. Ich habe wirklich darüber nachgedacht. Ich komme endlich vor Fakten. Ich werde für immer allein sein. Ich habe diese Wahrheit ignoriert, die ich allein seit sechs Jahren aufbringe.

Ich denke an Menschen, die ich verloren habe. Schwester, Cousin, Freunde, viele Onkel und Tanten, meine Freunde Mama meine Mutter.

Ich bin immer noch hier mit dem Tod um mich herum.

Ich weiß nicht, ob ich die Fähigkeiten für diese neue Realität habe.

Day one of 365, A new Year.

GOOD  morning!  Today's New Year's day!   It's snowing 🌨 In Yakima I  don't think it will snowing much unfortunately.  🌨 I like the Snow.   I hope this will be the year I find a companion. 🙏 Someone to share my life with dreams ambition.   😊 My goal is to post every day. Will see if it happens.   When I think of the loneliness of the years it gets in my head. Sometimes i think will I be alone forever?  Why am a alone and other people have somebody?  I have been though 3 strokes. 📉 brush of us of sight. . Genetic defects lupus and others. Loss of 🚗 driving.  Lost of ability to work to run. I can't even shove snow with out passing out.  This is day 1

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Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Turkey?

"WELCOME TO THANKSGIVING"

Well, there's my turkey! I could've bought my own turkey. All that trouble just for me. I want to have a real Thanksgiving. I want to have a real Christmas. On New Year's, I want to kiss someone special.

Those are my dreams. Kind of simple but nice. This blog will help me remember before I forget. I find myself forgetting things more and more.

You know what would be great? If I had a girlfriend and we had a movie, a blanket, and a warm fire.

I would make sure she had snacks and a beverage. We would see the snow falling outside and snuggle.